I've owed all of you this blog post for a while. I'm not even sure what took me so long to get on my computer and put it together. I've always strived to be 1000% honest with you guys. Blogs, instagram, Facebook.....social media in general has a habit of making people feel like everything is rainbows and unicorns for other people at all times - I'm sure you've seen the term "highlight reel" being used by people who come out and share the difficulties they face on social media... that's exactly what I'm talking about. Social media IS a highlight reel because a lot of people feel that they can only share the pretty parts of their lives with the people who are watching. Why is that? Can we not normalize the ugly parts of life too? I mean we should, we all have them. Most of y'all know recently my mom passed away, and we can get into the specifics of that another day. For now, I want to stay true to everyone who is supporting me. I want everyone to know that I've fallen into the habit of only sharing the 'pretty' parts of my life, too. I guess that could explain my absence over the last few months, and more specifically in the last few weeks. I haven't been completely absent but I have moments where I post all day and then I go days without posting. I'm not going to lie, I've been struggling with my mental health. Not in a bad severe way, but I have my days as I'm sure most if not all of you do too. Some days I'm just not up for it, some days I have nothing desirable or of substance to share with y'all, so I just don't. Some days when I do come on and chat or share, I force myself to. The stresses of life have a way of getting to you and overwhelming you and that's okay. That's what it is for me, I get overwhelmed. I get so overwhelmed with life and not even all of the extras, just life in general that it gets in my head. I've started trying to change the way I live my life and the way I think about my life. Getting anxious and upset about things I can't control used to make me ask "why me?!" and sometimes I still do. But I want to be a more positive person. I've started trying to see the good in every situation. At least I'm alive, I'm healthy and my kids are healthy. I have everything I need, I have a job. I'm very thankful for that! And everything I have on my plate, I put there. I'm not looking for sympathy and to be honest there really is no reason behind this post other than I felt like I owed it to all of you to let you know that we all go through things, we all struggle with things sometimes, and it is 1000% OKAY!!!
- I also wanted to make note that I added a contact tab on my website, it's at the top. If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to or need to get something off of your chest, PLEASE utilize my contact form! It gets sent straight to my email (which I check often) and I don't mind being your listening ear :)
~ Don't ever let your news feed or timeline make you feel like you're not exactly where you need to be ~
XO, Hailee
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